Monday, December 7, 2009

I Am Definitely Stir Crazy!

I need to put it out in the ether that I am very lonely...sigh.

It has been five weeks since my foot surgery and my being ambulatory. I can only walk with the use of crutches. Which means I can only go so far, I can't drive and I can't carry anything in my hands. Most of my close friends have been very helpful. The ones I'm not real close to, plus a few people I considered very close are leaving me dangling with empty promises. They do that thing of volunteering much more than what is expected and I guess when I take them up on their offer, they rethink the situation and then blow me off or they were just talking and really meant nothing by saying they wanted to come over or take me out.

It is very sad to toy with the emotions of a cripple. And toying with my emotions they are. I can't say they won't be my friends, but I can say they are not to be relied upon. Actually, what is taking its toll on me emotionally, is how hard it is to organize rides to places I need to go.

I know I am being overly dramatic, but think about it...I am overly sensitive when I feel fine. However, of course there are those who I was just nice to when I have seen them in the past, who are stepping up to the plate in leaps and bounds. It is the gesture or lack there of that is so meaningful.